by Jill Wintersteen, aka Spirit Daughter
This writer’s Moon happens to be in Scorpio, so I thought I would share my personal experience with this energy. It has not always been an easy one for me, especially being a strong Leo. For years I even denied my Moon’s placement, insisting my birthtime was wrong and my Moon was really in Sagittarius.
I felt my Moon’s presence though leading me. All through high school I was the soul searcher, the hippie of the bunch left to her own musings in the woods with her crystals, hemp necklaces and astrology charts. I loved my seclusion and stopped at nothing in the exploration of consciousness. I went on to study consciousness academically in undergraduate and graduate school, only to end up in another cave, a lab, studying the inner workings of the mind.
Everyone I’d meet would ask me my sign and would be surprised. I wasn’t a typical Leo, standing in the spotlight waiting for recognition (common assumptions of Leos). I preferred to stay hidden, being known only for my work not my name. I went on to study varying views of different energy systems and how they affected the human mind and body. All the while, ignoring my Moon in Scorpio until, one day, I sat with an astrologer in the woods of Topanga.
I’ll never forget his expression when he saw my Moon in Scorpio happily buried in my 2nd house. “Oh, that’s your problem.” he said. He went on to explain my entire life up to that point. How I was meant to lead and be in the spotlight, but my Moon keep dragging me back to the underworld, back to the mystery where my emotional body felt comfortable. He told me, I had a frequency of a great leader that had once been betrayed. My Moon reflected this deep wound and my inability to trust anything other than my own intuition. That’s the thing about leaders, they have to trust their own intuition but also they need to trust others.
He told me I needed to reconcile my relationship with my Moon, that it represented the most wounded parts of my soul and until I healed this relationship I would always be in struggle. I would have to come back in another life to deal with this energy, if I didn’t sort it out in this one. It was intense! I had no idea where to start, but luckily I had spent many years collecting pieces of the puzzle.
So I became my own experiment, a very Scorpio trait, and started to step out of my comfortable shadows. I practiced deep soul work in finding forgiveness and trust again in my life. I, of course, had attracted some situations to reteach myself these much needed lessons.
Once I recognized and honored my Moon, I was able to work with the energy. I was able to utilize it to help me, not hinder me. I was able to not let it control me but still be very much a part of my personality. It no longer calls me to the shadows, I am (somewhat) comfortable with the spotlight and being seen for my talents. This is what Spirit Daughter truly is a manifestation of, a Leo with the ability to lead and teach combined with a Scorpio ready to understand any energy that comes her way. When I look at my own chart and the pieces, I can see how they all fit together. Iappreciate my Moon for leading me to crystals and astrology when I was 16 despite being labeled different. I know what has pulled me in two directions for so long and I know understand how to reconcile them. I accept I’m a Lion with a Scorpio riding on its back. It’s been a journey though, and I’m grateful for my path always.
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